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I’m so sick of being the daughter in this disgusting family

2022.01.23 21:31 carminex3 I’m so sick of being the daughter in this disgusting family

It’s literally unfair. Just because I was born without a penis that yes I have to do everything in the goddam household. Clean, cook, wash the dishes, yes it all goes onto me. And because I refuse to do it all that I am the unloved one. You know what? I don’t love you either. I hate the way you treat me. Here I am helping you clean for Chinese New Years while my brother is in the kitchen with my friends, and you’re teaming up and yelling at me together. I can’t deal with this. I can’t wait to leave this family. Life is so unfair.
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2022.01.23 21:31 MuffinCrumblez I couldn't function due to my anger, and at the same time, I can't function without my anger. My journey through self-improvement has left me at a crossroads and with a loss of motivation.

I apologize in advance if this sounds like utter ramblings, but I'd like to thank you regardless for your time with my post. And if this kind of post isn't allowed, please let me know ASAP.
My relationship with anger has been with me for as long as I can remember. I'm from your stereotypical Asian background: boy, short, academically pushed to the brink, had to constantly "fight" (for lack of a better term) just to be taken seriously, STEM; and please don't even ask about my love life, you'll never hear a more tragic comedy. In all of this, whether I was living in my home country, or now in NA, I've always been considered angrier than most.
Back in my home country, even at a young age, I was teased and picked on due to my weight, height, economic standing, and skin tone. I was told growing up to not mind them, and they'll get bored, which eventually led to even worse bullying. It got to a point where I decided to use the weight they made fun of as a means of defense. It's been so long since my first "fist fight"(was about as coordinated and lame as you'd expect), but I do remember, that once I got my first taste of anger at it's peak, I never looked back. It also carried with me to my schooling and extra-curricular life. Being constantly compared to my cousins and peers left me going to extra-curricular with this innate anger and hatred, and though this produced results; this left me in a state of sheer loneliness and bitterness. I was getting the academic results, but that only resulted in my peers hating me even more due to the toxic academic/comparison culture we got swept up in. This of course, resulted in depression and a history of self-harm/self-sabotage, and loneliness.
Coming to NA a decade into my life only made my problems worse off, as during this time, I was about as graceful as a blind person in a glassware shop, when I went through puberty. My mother always said that people were jealous of my skin tone, and how I don't burn easily, but the only thing I have to show for it is constant anger, anxiety and paranoia, as I was subject to intense racism in my adolescence. When I tried to make friends with the passions I did have (a.k.a Tabletop games like M:tG and DnD, Video Games like SC and Pokemon; the works), my drive that came from being addicted to anger and conflict only isolated me even more, as the majority simply wanted to have a good time, while I wanted to top 4/take 1st at the LGS.
I'm now also into weight-lifting, biking, and hiking, as I got tired of people ridiculing me for my weight, but with a caveat: that being, I need to basically imagine I'm in life-threatening scenario's. Whether it's on the squat rack, shoulder presses, hell, even HIT or conditioning; I don't get my motivation or energy unless I'm imagining I'm against a horde of people out for my blood. This indeed had me lose weight, and gain more muscle, I still ended up being the anxious, paranoia riddled self I was prior to working out.
I recently became a bit more active in this community, as I hit one of my lowest lows in 2020, and I really appreciate the people I've met here. I've even gotten to reconcile with my parents, cousins, and even cut-off toxic groups and traditional ties that was harmful to my health. I've even made friends in my Uni classes, despite us being on Zoom for the last 1+ year(s). Still working on that 404 GF/BF, I'll update ya when I can.
My problem now stems from the fact that, now that I've cut off all avenues in which my anger fed off of, and now that I'm in a more positive environment and regiment, I feel numb, disenfranchised, and even more depressed then where I started. It's crazy to think about right? I've taken steps to better myself, lose weight, work on academics on my terms, am in a major in which I enjoy what I do, and I'm at a better place with my family than I've ever been. Yet, I just can't find the "fire" that was once there; the competitive instinct that basically kept me alive for the last 2 decades, fizzled out in a the span of a couple of months. My ambition to get smarter, aim for higher, and be at the top of what I do; has just collapsed on me. These last couple of months/year have been where I've felt it the hardest.
This isn't even beginning to talk about the hobbies that I use to jump into and pour my soul in; as I feel they've been hit the hardest. My desire to build Gundam Plamo's, beating my peak in weightlifting, make new homebrews in M:tG and Yu-Gi-Oh, get past my highest rank in LoL, getting better at VGC Pokemon, climbing ranked in Heathstone, even just hiking new trails became utterly cumbersome to my psyche. What use to bring me joy and personal goals, just feels numbing and not worth it anymore. Hell, even with newer games like Valorant and Genshin Impact; the spark is there early on, but weaker than the past, and dissipates faster than what I'd consider normal, leaving me a shell, and constantly asking myself "why bother?".
Am I just addicted to anger? Have I just peaked? Is it a quarter-life crisis? Do I really just need to "man up"? Or am I just in a slump/something underlying, like past trauma? I've tried speaking to my therapist about this, but I learned recently he got let go from the clinic I saw him at, and haven't found a therapist I've clicked with since. I'd love to hear if anyone in the community has been through anything similar, or has seen/heard of similar situations. Thanks again for your time, I really appreciate it.
tl;dr I use to be really proactive with a toxic, self-harming mindset/outlook, but once I got a more positive outlook; all of my drive drove away, leaving me stranded and outta gas.
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2022.01.23 21:31 throwrasgtsd Me [F24] asking my bf [M25] questions to make myself feel better, makes him feel bad

TL;DR: I always ask my bf questions without reacting "badly" to any of the answers. I ask them because we're in a LDR and I'm afraid that I'll find out things that nobody probably cares about, but I want to avoid finding it our and then feel like a "fool" and lied to, while he usually forgets things, hence is why I always ask him a few times a day, but he says it makes him upset because he feels like I don't trust him. I told him over again that I'm anxious, because I do trust him and I also know he forgets stuff, so I just want to be sure I did my best to protect myself from feeling that way so that not only I can feel better, but also be a better gf and have less conflict with him, but he still doesn't trusts me when I tell him that and believes I don't trust him. What do I do or say, when all I can do is ask? Before that I asked him for an open phone policy if we're together and he said he could never do that so I said that I'd just want to be able to ask and get an honest answer.
Sorry for my long TLDR, but if you read it, thanks for sticking around and that is pretty much the gist. I don't know what to do. We've been dating for 3 years and alot of the times I also feel like he invalidates the way I feel without realizing it. He speaks very loosely and uses words like "never" or "always" so easily, that you just know that he means "irregularly" "rarely" or "most of the time" and it's very frustrating, when I take his words as they are and they turn out not be that case.
I have a history of liars in my past, not just relationships, but my entire family is just filled with lies and it feels awful to the point where I don't consider them family anymore. I get very affected when I find out about things that aren't exactly the way, someone tells me they are. Me trusting someone is very hard, difficult and ultimately insanely scary. I feel incredibly vulnerable, but I want to be. I love to be. But it also makes me insecure about stuff he probably "forgot to tell me" and then I'm scared I'm going to feel like he lied to me again (always takes me a bit to get out of it). I know I probably sound like a mom who's asking their child to eat 5 times a day and I know it's annoying, but it makes me a better person, it makes me not upset (which he absolutely hates and me too, because he stops being nice to me and I feel horrible) and it makes me feel stable, it helps me to cope with the distance and the vulnerability issue, but it makes him feel bad.
What am I supposed to do? Should I let it go and make myself just feel that bad again (I did that 1 year ago and I felt like went from stable to insanely unstable because there was so much anxiety piling up), is there a fix? A middle ground? Anything else I haven't mentioned? I'm also seeing a professional so she knows what I've been through. She made me realize that maybe he doesn't trust me and I should talk about it, but I wouldn't even know how to adress it or anything. I feel stuck and idk what to do.
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2022.01.23 21:31 wunderlust20 Rent control

I saw an earlier post where someone mentioned J-51 tax benefits. It’s my understanding that a building receiving J-51 tax benefits must then become rent stabilized, if not already. Once the J-51 benefits expire, the units can be deregulated if they weren’t rent stabilized prior to J-51 tax benefits. What if a unit was rent controlled prior to J-51 and then became rent stabilized during the tax benefit period? Does that mean the unit can be legally deregulated? The unit only became RS because that’s what’s supposed to happen after a rent controlled tenant leaves.
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2022.01.23 21:31 Accomplished_Dig3699 Shifty fanart Of John Seed(artist is me)

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